calgon take me away

Ok, so I haven't disappeared I have just been so swamped with MOPS and Holiday Shop Around that I can't even think straight. Our event is approaching quickly and I cannot believe that all of this hard work will soon be over. 70 vendors WOW! When I first started I didn't even know if we would have a show because lack of vendors. God is so Good and he has provided! I wish I could shop but I will be working. I told my mom just the other night that a show is so much work and that it could cause a Baptist preacher to become an alcoholic LOL! When this is all said and done I will just take a hot bubble bath and try to figure out how to say no to people instead of them just seeing the word "sucker" written on my forehead.

I wish I could See!

I know that there are Angels among us. I am not just talking sweet people that we say, "oh, what an angel they are." I am talking about true angels that are here to watch over us, guide us and surround us with love. I truly believe that Zane can see them. The other day as we were driving down the road he looks out the window and says, "Oh, Mommy, look how pretty." I asked what was pretty and he said the clouds and he said he loved the way they floated just like the angels were. He said that the angels were way prettier than the clouds though. He then said, "I am going to get a big big ladder and climb up to the angels and God. I have never said to him that God or the angels were in the sky. He never asked so I never had said anything about it. I just thought, how cute and so sweet.

A few days later at the dinner table Lance asked Zane what he did today and he said, I played train with Jesus and angels. Mommy was on the puter (computer) and they played with me." We asked him lots of questions about it and he said never would answer them in detail like we were hoping. He just said they had fun, laughed and then just floated away. I think it is such a great gift that the Lord has given to him. He is so pure and his mind is not filled with the garbage that adults deal with on a daily basis. I hope that his innocents never goes away and that his mind will not be conformed of this world but will be transformed by the renewing of his mind. I wish I could see the beautiful angels that visit him, but I am happy knowing that they are there with God's child that he just has allowed me to raise.

Sometimes I think Zane is the parent

Children are a total reflection of their parents. Sad to say sometimes, but true! I broke a piece of wood that belongs on my computer desk and Zane decides to correct me....BAD BAD BAD Mommy! NO NO! You need to go to your room. I just laughed because I couldn't get mad at him for talking to me that way! I do it to him. Now I know what I sound like. I went to get the drill and some screws to fix my mistake and using my handyman skills, Zane starts clapping and says, "Yeah, good job Mommy. Way to go. You fixed it! Good job!"

This made me realize we have such a HUGE impact on our children. Of course I knew that, but it was brought back to light for me through my son! Words they hear are so powerful.

Oh, and my handyman skills didn't last b/c I broke it again and Lance had to really fix it this time!!

My 30th

Ok, so for a year now I have dreaded this day. I did not want to become a woman in my 30s. It really depressed me and I thought I would be totally a drag on my birthday, but to my surprise it didn't go as bad as I had expected. I knew I wouldn't have a Big Party because Lance is so busy with work and preparing for the BIG test. Well, the day finally approached and I woke up to beautiful flowers, the smell of wonderful coffee and breakfast cupcakes with candles. Lance did the whole candle thing so Zane could sing and blow them out. Zane just loves birthdays and he was so excited that his mommy was having a birthday. It was so cute! Lance started my day off so nice and I knew that it was going to be a good day, if Zane continued to be a "pleasure." I took off to Bible Study and met Lance for lunch with Zane at the Loft, our churches coffee and lunch ministry (such great food). It was very peaceful. We ate outside on the patio and Zane played. You can really feel the peace that God brings to that place. I just LOVE it! That night I had cooked my own Birthday dinner. I HATE eating out now because well, with a 2 year old......it isn't much fun! I received my presents and cards from my 2 favorite men and we ate and had a great dessert. It was nice! I had a great day. Turning 30 wasn't too bad!

Days have passed and it still isn't that terrible. This weekend I had so much to do. Friday night I was blessed enough to get out of the house and go shopping with Jennifer. Of course we only shopped for our kids but it was WITHOUT the kids. It was so great to spend time with a friend that you are so close with but do not get to hang out often because of the business in our lives. Her friendship is so important to me...ok well, that is another Blog. I got back home around 12 because we live in the boonies from any mall!!!!!! I got up at 6 because Lawton had a game in San Antonio at 8:00. I am so NOT the morning person!! God knew that and gave me a child that sleeps until 8:00 am. I often try to remember how on earth I got up when I worked. I woke Zane and we headed to San Antonio. Lance had to be in Austin for his classes and so it was just me with both boys. We left SA and headed to Fredericksburg to drop them off at my in-laws because I had to go to trade days for MOPS. I was just so stressed I would not get it all done. To my SURPRISE, I did. I was back to pick up the boys by 2 or 2:15, I HAD to do a little shopping, like I promised. Lawton met me at the cattle guard and said he and Zane had a surprise for me so I was blind folded and driven in the mule to the creek. As I got out about to Barf b/c I was just driven by a crazy 7th grader I could feel a hand on my head. I felt fur and I was handed a wand of some sort. The blind fold came off and WOW! My husband had thrown me a wonderful SURPRISE part. It was great. My family came all the way here and all of our friends from church and even a few from college were all there. It was unbelievable. He used to be Mr. Romance but after 5 years and kids things aren't as exciting as they were but he really pulled this one off and I didn't have a clue. He says he never can get me anymore so he just stopped but he sure got me this time. I had thought of everything; crown, wand, balloons, flowers, food, pink decor, fancy cake and much much more. I was upset with him because he did skip his class! I never would have guessed and it was a great 30th Birthday!